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[21 Feb 2007|10:19pm]
I haven't read lj for weeks... my bad. But just so you know, life is awesome.

Classes are going well.
Signed a lease for an awesome apartment next year with Banjooooo!
Got selected to be an orientation leader coordinator for the year.
Most likely going to VA Beach for spring break with Liz.
annnnd I'll be 21 in 24 days.

[31 Jan 2007|10:30pm]
I think I might drop my math minor.

If I keep it, this is what my last three semesters will be:
Spring 07 (now): 17 credits
Summer 07: 3 credit math course
Fall 07: 17 credits
Spring 08: student teaching

But, if I drop the minor, which really isn't all that important to me, then I'll only have to take 14 credits this semester and 13 in the fall. Then student teaching next spring.

The math class I'm in now seems pretty ridiculous for me. We have to do a mini-practicum in a grade 7-12 classroom. I'm gonna be certified to teach K-3. Point? Not so sure.

And I want to do well these last two semesters. They're some of my most important classes. Dean's list again would be nice. Oh, and having fun and enjoying college would be nice too.

On another less stressful note, getting an off-campus apartment with Aaron for next year is in the works. UBER EXCITED! I've had enough of the student apartments. It's getting old.

[03 Jan 2007|05:11pm]
Lab Safety C+ [shhhhh it's not even a real class.]
Observation Strategies, Assessment, & Child Study B+
Practicum in Early Childhood Studies A-
First Aid & CPR/AED A
Mathematics in our World II A-
Music & Movement Skills for the Classroom Teacher A

semester GPA 3.62 = DEAN'S LIST
cumulative GPA 2.96

oh, and I looked really cute today. and I got my flirt on big time.
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[13 Dec 2006|07:50pm]
What type of partier are you?
Your Result: Bar Social Butterfly

Not quite as bad as the 'bar slut', you like to get a bit ripped and become everyone's new best freind. You talk to everyone and anyone, keep people laughing, and with enough liquor you become the professional comedian. You get into deep-thought topics with fellow drunks, get people crying on your shoulder when they vent to you, and end up with hundreds of phone numbers of people that you simply can't recall in your cell-phone all the time.

Bar Slut
The rock-star party animal
The Socialite
Hardcore drunk
The Lurker
The designated driver
What type of partier are you?
Make Your Own Quiz

What Kind of Reader Are You?
Your Result: Literate Good Citizen

You read to inform or entertain yourself, but you're not nerdy about it. You've read most major classics (in school) and you have a favorite genre or two.

Dedicated Reader
Book Snob
Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
Fad Reader
What Kind of Reader Are You?
Create Your Own Quiz

Your Birthdate: March 17

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single.
Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you!
Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4

You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest:

You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.

At Your Lowest:

You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.

In Love:

You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.

How You're Attractive:

You are very affectionate and inspire trust.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Respected?"
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[10 Dec 2006|07:20pm]
I don't get myself lately.
I'm doing fantastically on my schoolwork.
My practicum is great.
My friends don't seem like my friends anymore.
I feel like I'm a mess (but I'm not).
I'm always sad.
I'm good at fake smiles though.
I'm not worried about finals.
I bought & made good gifts for my family this year.
I'm really poor now.
I miss my best friend Liz.
I miss all my old friends.
I'm really lonely.
I want to cuddle.
I want to connect.
I need a connection.

....just a string of thoughts.
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[09 Dec 2006|02:53am]

The PISCES Woman

'Well, what are you?" said the Pigeon. "I can see you're

trying to invent something!" "I-I'm a little girl," said Alice, rather doubtfully.

She found herself at last in a beautiful garden, among the bright flower-beds and the cool fountains.

The line forms to the right. And please don't crowd. There may not beenough Pisces women for every man, but that's no reason to be unruly.You'll have to take your turn, and hope for the best.

Even without astrology, rumors have spread about the charms of a Piscesfemale. She has her negative points, to be sure, but at first glanceshe's every man's grade school valentine, with maybe just a touch of aPlayboy bunny to add some pepper. We might as well admit that themodern, emancipated woman, with her cast-iron image, has made thePisces girl's value shoot even higher. With all that free­dom from thefeminine mystique clouding the air over lover's lane, the demure,pretty, helpless Neptune creature has to beat off the men with bigsticks.

It's hardly surprising that she's at a premium. The Neptune femaleseldom tries to overshadow her man, mar­ried or single. She hasn't theslightest hidden, neurotic desire to dominate him in any way. He canpull out her chair, put on her coat, whistle for the taxi, light hercigarette and talk about how wonderful he is to his heart's content.All she wants is that he should protect her and care for her. She'shappily content to lean on his big broad shoulder and let him know,with wide-eyed wonder, how strong he is, and how much she needs him inthis scary world. Just think of all those wolves out there, waiting todevour Red Riding Hoods. It's enough to make a girl get out hersmelling salts. Even if she isn't quite as Victorian as all that(though plenty of girl fish are), she'll be a charm­ing listener to allhis troubles, and what is referred to as a good egg through everycrisis.

A Pisces woman thinks her mate, lover, boy friend, brother, father-infact, any man-can lick the whole world with one hand tied behind hisback, and it takes a surprisingly small amount of her touching faith tocon­vince them of the same thing, men being the way they are. And youwonder why she's so popular? The Pisces girl is a cozy, calm haven oftranquility for her proud male, far from the noise of the frame and theticker tape machines. The lights in her fish pond are soft and dim.They soothe tired eyes which have been blasted by neon and all thosesilly little figures at the stock market she couldn't understand tosave her life. (Though if it would really save her life, she wouldsharpen her pencil.)

In the winter she wears fluffy angora mittens. In the Spring she wearsdainty, full skirts. Summers will find her in a brief bikini. In thefall she'll look adorable sitting be­side you at football games, withher hands in your pockets to keep them warm, and asking you the score.She is eter­nally feminine in all seasons. At the risk of making anun­derstatement, men are drawn to her like bumblebees to a honey pot.

A short conversation with her, and a man instantly re­laxes. Hepictures a glowing, crackling fire on a chilly night, or he seeshimself in a hammock on a balmy spring day, with no one to nag him. Shemakes it clear that she'll never blame him for any problems in hiscareer or any ac­cidental mistakes. It's always someone else's fault.Not her man's. Shell never press him to get ahead faster. His own paceis perfect with her. Need I explain why the female fish makes the mostdangerous other woman of all the Sun signs? Flash! Maritimewarning: After marriage she may nudge a little. To be truthful, she maynudge a lot. In a way, it serves you right for letting yourself be soblinded by her charms. Lots of times she'll even be bitterly sarcastic,but every woman has to have some flaws, and the Pisces girl will begentle far more often than she's quarrelsome. She has to be goaded byextreme cruelty or laziness in a mate to be a shrew-and who's to say acruel or lazy hus­band doesn't deserve it? Not me. I'm with her.

Besides, her delectable femininity covers any minor defi­ciencies, andmost of the time the typical Neptune girl is soft, dreamy and womanly.Since the fish swims in both directions at once, she adapts beautifullyand quietly to conflicting situations that would turn other women intonervous Nellies. Of course, now and then, some cranky words andirritable chatter may bubble up from her nor­mally placid stream ofthought. Occasionally a sensitive Neptune female who has suffered harshtreatment at an early age will allow bitterness to break the twosymbolic fish of her sign apart-and this can be very sad. She be­comesa lonely, miserable Piscean, always swimming furi­ously, and meetingherself everywhere she dives down to escape-never realizing that theturning inward of her end­less love and sympathy toward herself is thereal poison. Drugs and drink and false illusions hide the truth fromher and blind her to the rocks in the river that might destroy her. Butthe average Neputune girl keeps both symbolic fish joined firmlytogether in smooth action, gliding softly first back, then a littleforward, so you're never quite sure exactly which way she's headed.Pisces is said to be a deep, mysterious sea, into which all riversflow. You'll have a better chance of catching her if you know some ofher elusive secrets. What makes her swim?

First of all, she's subtle. Ask Nicky Hilton, Michael Wilding, EddieFisher and Richard Burton-each of whom married a Pisces. As a matter offact, the same Pisces. She is not only subtle, she's sometimes a bitdeceptive when she practices her art of wrapping you around her emeraldear­rings.

Now, you may know a Neptune lady who wears a ging­ham apron and a shysmile, and who is the epitome of the devoted wife, homemaker and tendermother. You're think­ing that she's neither subtle nor deceptive.Forgive my di­rectness, but you are wrong. As for that Pisces lady youthink is different, I know her, too, or one just like her.

She's a widow who lives in the Bronx, and her name is Pauline. She alsowears a gingham apron and a shy smile -the whole setup. How can such aFannie Farmer image be subtle or deceptive? I'll tell you. First ofall, she wraps everyone around her apron strings. (She doesn't have anyemerald earrings. Next year, maybe.) She's a short woman who hasmanaged to stand up to the loss of a dear child, heartbreak, boredom,tragedy, fear, poverty, and even the confusion of sudden, very briefriches. She's coped with little boys' bruised knees, braces, lostgaloshes; a husband's sloppy Sunday cook-ins in her neat kitchen-andthe big­gest mixture of in-laws-all speaking eight languages atonce-you ever saw outside the United Nations. She has faced all thismishmash of fate like Rocky Graziano. That's gentle? That's delicate?To this very moment, her two sons think of her as a charming, girlish,helpless, fluttery and soft little creature, who needs to be protected,and who can't quite understand how the lock works on the front door.

She's delightfully vague and dreamy. She doesn't know a thing abouteconomics, but she manages to dress as though she was turned out bySophie of Saks, cook frequent seven-course dinners for assortedgrandchildren, pay the rent on time, and send exquisite gifts onholidays and birthdays- all on a monthly income about the size of oneof Jack Benny's tips. She has the open love and affection of twodaughters-in-law, and an incongruous group made up of the librarian,the super, the owner of the comer delly, the fruit man, half a dozenstray cats and children, the butcher, the newsboy, and would youbelieve it, even the landlord. She may have one enemy. The man sheturned down before she married her husband. He probably joined theForeign Legion in disappointment, and now I doubt if she evenre­members his name. Heartless females, these Pisces women. Subtle anddeceptive. (But don't try to tell their neighbors that.)

Like the March winds, your Pisces girl will have many a mood. She'sterribly sentimental, and when her feelings are wounded she can crybuckets. She'll look at you so re­proachfully you'll feel as if you'djust shot a small rabbit. Pisces females sometimes get the idea they'rehopelessly unequipped for the fierce battles and driving ambitionre­quired to survive. Then deep depression sets in. At these timesyou'll have to tell her she's admired for her deep, mysterious wisdomand her blessed understanding by every single human she has ever gracedwith her friendship. It's usually the gospel truth. The hardest lessonshe has to learn is to overcome her timidity and her doubts. If thefears go deep, she'll shut herself off from others, then wonder whyshe's lonely. She's often afraid of imposing, pushing too hard, takingadvantage, when such thoughts are in no one's head but hers.

Now and then a Pisces girl will cover her shyness and vulnerabilitywith wisecracks, a sophisticated veneer and a frigid independentpersonality, but it's merely a cloak of protection, worn to hide heruncertainty from the prying eyes of rough people who would bruise hergenfle heart if she exposed it. I know one who pours out her real soulby writing lovely song lyrics with a secret message woven in the shadesof her soft, very private dreams. When she's not writing, she's thepicture of the brittle, callous, career woman she wants people to see.Yet, even this type of Pisces is unable to fight her Sun sign. With allher make-believe independence she waits on the curb and lets the manwhistle for the cab. There are some things one just doesn't do, as faras Neptune women are concerned; not acting like a lady in public is oneof them. She fools a lot of men who could quiet her inner fears andmake her take back her frequent claim of, "Who needs a husband? Theyonly mess up your life." Imagine a statement like that from a Piscean,who needs to belong to someone more than she needs to sleep, eat orbreathe.

A Pisces girl will give all of her heart to her children, except forthe large chunk she saves for you. She'll love them all, but the oneswho are uglier, weaker, smaller or sicker may have a slight edge withher. Only a Pisces movie star would pass up the little dimpled darlingsand adopt a tiny, crippled tot with frightened eyes. Female fish arethe greatest women in the world for understanding the shyness of smallboys and the growing pains of awkward adolescent girls. A Pisceanmother spins a thousand wispy, cobweb dreams over each bassinet. She'llsacrifice anything so her children can have what she was denied as achild. She may be too permissive. Administering discipline is difficultfor her, and she must realize that a lack of firmness is often as badas severe neglect. In a way, it is neglect, of building the smallcharacters in her care, who need firm guidance to leam to swim alone.If she's guilty of too much softness, explain it to her kindly. She'llcomprehend without bitter­ness, and begin to give the hairbrush aworkout. Still many Neptune mothers manage a happy medium betweendis­cipline and kindness, and their offspring do them credit.

A Pisces woman will gladly let you cam the bacon and cggplant. She'llprobably prefer not to enter the brutal com­petition of the commercialworld, unless you desperately need her to. She had enough of that (ifshe's a typical Neptune girl) when she worked for that big, confusingcompany while she was waiting for you to rescue her. Some, not all, butsome Pisces women are a wee little bit extrav­agant. She may need somehelp figuring out why the bank's balance doesn't reconcile with herstubs, written in Sanskrit. Still, when an emergency forces her toadapt her champagne taste to a skim milk pocketbook, she'll man­age.

She listens to the ocean, and it tells her things. In the> midst ofthe city, she still hears the waves of Neptune whispering to her Piscesheart more, perhaps, than she wants to know. Don't forget her birthdayor your anni­versary or the day you proposed. She won't. I'll alwaysremember the Pisces friend I went to school with in West Virginia. Shewas tiny, with long, dark hair and those strange Neptune lights in hergreenish brown eyes. She mar­ried (among several other men) a bigfootball star; it was a totally unexpected elopement. I remember whenshe asked him why he proposed. She was curious. "Well," he told her,"it was the funniest thing, Shorty. I didn't have the slightest idea ofproposing that day. We were in the park, near the pool. The chicks whowere lying around getting a tan had wet, stringy hair from swimming,and they looked all hot and sweaty on the benches. You were sittingthere under that tree in a white lace dress, and you looked so cool anddifferent from the others. You looked like-well, I guess you sortalooked like a girl." That's the subtle secret of the Pisces woman.Whether she follows Neptune's call as a dedicated nun in a convent oras a sultry songstress in a noisy nightclub-she's a girl. All girl. Onehundred per­cent.


[29 Nov 2006|11:12pm]
So I've been having this recurring dream. Each time the setting and people are different, but sometime during the sequence events I find myself with a mouth full of gum. When I try to spit the gum out or use my fingers to take the gum out, I can't. The gum is stuck to the inside of my mouth. And then I wake up.

What the WEIRD?!
So I looked it up.

To dream that you are chewing gum, suggests that you are unable to express yourself effectively. You may feel vulnerable. Alternatively, it symbolizes a sticky situation that you found yourself in.

To dream that you are unable to get rid of your gum, suggests that you are experiencing some indecision, powerlessness or frustration.  You may lack understanding in a situation or find that a current problem is overwhelming.

I can't think of anything that that might mean. I don't feel powerless or frustrated. And the only thing that's overwhelming me right now is my schoolwork... but it's not really a problem. Hmmm.
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[26 Nov 2006|05:04pm]
I don't belong here or at "home".

[25 Nov 2006|10:49am]
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[19 Nov 2006|09:39pm]
Testriffic IQ test

Mentally RetardedFar Below AverageBelow AverageAround AverageExceptionally GiftedExtremely BrilliantBright Masterminda Regional Geniusa Universal Genius

&&&& some fun facts...Collapse )

[14 Nov 2006|06:48pm]
my celeb lookalikesCollapse )
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[09 Nov 2006|12:57am]
Elizabeth and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.

It rained today.
The bottom of my pants got wet.
I got my period.
I forgot something for my group lesson.
It kinda sucked.
Lost my appetite.
A little girl puked at work after cuddling with me all afternoon.
Realized I had a dumb reflection to write for tomorrow.
Couldn't get the fuckin dummy's chest to rise in CPR class.

but I just finished a pair of mittens, so life is alright.
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[05 Nov 2006|10:27am]
Halloween came and went. I was Pippi.

cute.Collapse )

I also got my license & car back. How wonderful.

My classes are going swimmingly. My kids are awesome.

Registered for spring classes: one education class, two maths, a science, & a history. TERRIBLE.

I want a boy toy.

[10 Oct 2006|12:19am]
really good weekend.

aunt Shannon, Tommy, & Brady came to pick me up Friday night
went to the pumkin fest with them
....why was it so exciting as kids?

babysat Lily & Olivia
such sweet girls... and it's really sad that they don't know their cousins

had a Grey's Anatomy season 2 marathon with mom; got a lot done on my blanket. I really hope it's done for Christmas.
also did a little shopping. :) guess who's down a jeans size?

did a corn maze & hay ride today with the kids. what fun <3

that's it.

[01 Oct 2006|10:01pm]
pretty fantastic weekend.

Friday night I got to see a lot of people, got pretty drunk, and had a long philosophical discussion with Nate & Lord.... not that I remember much about it. got locked out of the apartment, so I slept @122 & spooned with Meg.

got up pretty early (well, 10 is early when you go to bed at 3) and went for a hike with Casey. we were gonna do the Flume, but they charge 10 bucks. BOOOOOO! so we went right up the road and saw the Basin, and hiked a little around there. there's some awesome falls. we're definitely going back & bringing a camera. at 2 was the musical theatre showcase. a lot of my friends sang in it. Jacque did a good job <3 after that her mom took us to walmart, where I stocked up on some good eats. then Jac & I just hung around the apartment & watched movies all night.

woke up this morning after a blissful eleven hours of sleep. lounged, checked postsecret, didn't shower... it was wonderful. then I went downtown to get coffee with Erik, and spent three hours at the library. I was sooooo productive; you'd all be proud. came home to a delicious dinner that Jacque made - baked mac&cheese and kielbasa. yummo! then I read a little bit, fixed my bike, and went for a walk around campus with Jacque. it was nice to just talk for a while. now I think I'm gonna finish knitting the hat I'm making for Pearse. he'll be one on October 12th!

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[25 Sep 2006|09:50pm]
I want a boyfriend.
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[20 Sep 2006|07:12pm]
I am completely drained right now. I'd post a copy of my schedule.. but I don't think any of you would actually look at it. How about you recommend some upbeat music to me instead?
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[09 Sep 2006|11:33am]
Welp, school is fantastic. I can't believe I'm a junior. I'd like to say that I'm halfway done, but probably not. I think I'll need an extra semester. My classes are fantastic:

Music & Movement Skills for the Elementary Teacher
Math in Our World II
Observational Strategies, Assessment, & Child Study
Practicum in Early Childhood Studies
Lab Safety (online course)
CPR & First Aid (starts mid October)

Practicum involves 9 hours a week in the classroom (early preschool!) and a 90 minute seminar Monday nights. I think I'm gonna do really well.

Fall orientation was a blast, though not as fun as June was. Met a few more awesome people. Got completely belligerant before classes even started. That's Plymouth State for ya! My roommates are superawesome. It's gonna be a great year in aparment 121.

Oh! I'm also babysitting Tuesday & Thursday mornings. Ava Morgan is 5 and Pearse is 10 months. They're such great kids. & it's comforting to know that I'll be making a little money. I also babysat one Saturday night for another family, and they said they'll be calling me again. I guess Nancy at the child development center really likes me, cuz she keeps giving out my name & number. :)

Speaking of which, I gotta get ready and then head over there to help out with the yard sale fundraiser.

Come back later, sit on my sheets, I wanna show you something. *clickclick*

[20 Aug 2006|07:35pm]
New journal... for no real reason.

I've been housesitting for my aunt & uncle since Monday. They & their four kids are in Disneyworld! Today is Riley's 9th brithday, so I'm sure they're having a blast.

&&& it's Nicole's 21st! wooooooo! We went to Olive Garden to celebrate today.

I am moving to Plymouth sometime this coming weekend.... which day? I still don't know. But it can't come soon enough.

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